How easy to forget some things? While struggling and pray but ...so far not, released and able. Gone and forgot at will. Need Manssah to be born. (One of Joseph's nips named about 'God made me forget'). Instead of/so-far, torment away about faith-less regrets about loss.

On one hand a wrong-forget: Stop battling and go on a un-holy-day. The mission goes part-time and beer. The other and want gone; go nag and bash, about money lost and vulnerable places.

One need to never forget, the other warrants deliverance.

Unadulterated stupidity and cavorting through the barriers has me here. And so... what? Got communion and light with a today-pray battle on. So, have to work a bit, when wouldn't if...

The other view could be; '...realise the answer to this prayer'. Suppose this as well. Best less and more trust -- get that.

Oh la la. God is good. And able and who wants to be here-lands anyway? The only bit that matters is the next and the presence of this here that we have. One jumbo motivation for the set-apart life. The rest, in the wilds and byways out and about -- is boring, compared. Major push this.

'...grow strangely dim, In the light of...'

Welcome to a post for me, about me. A self-indulgent warning applies here.

More, suppose humility, in going as public as this is and like; 'confessing one to another'. For healing purposes. Being without 'fellowship' this must do.

Spout out and communicate to God. No promises or vowing -- read/know, this isn't advised. More something to read back during the day. Stare at the graphic like an icon transmitting its way. Visions and cries.

The early hours and 'what a la la bam bam bam'.

Better try say something and skedaddle. Here's the rev. needs applying. What isn't (in) faith = sin. Needs and concerns that God has reason to overturn are to apprehend and hold out in declarations. Waiting on. IF we ask. Anything, according...

'Name and claim' has the worst theological connotations associated with. But... bullshit shackle free. Bubble world me-me-me aside. It's what it is. What else could, or did, Jesus mean?

Most of what Jesus and thereby God says is too outrageous for our tech-drenched outlook. We're told who is god and their angelic police and govt. We have low needs and if not, oppressed by the social security psyche-wards. God seen-as somehow absent and unable.

Back to mandate and go/do.

That which isn't held in faith isn't for having but surrender and the cross. Leading with Biblical and Holy Spirit unction-wise is for thrusting out in a bold and humble assertion. Missed leads upon lead over decades that would have given me the material-easy and company but... Faith, is better, than not. If found and able in God to exercise. To operate... -- what's the word? -- to... mandate. Yep. That'll do.

Hold this prayer below in tension with another side but this what/what. We live in these counteracting paradoxes. A time for and a time for...

Put; Anything You Ask And... Go and hold-in, wait on, thankful in, faith for -- received.

With this most-said chant. As happs, over 'them' decades: